Why is it so difficult for me to keep in touch with my friends and family? I am a TERRIBLE procrastinator about calling and writing letters/emails, etc. I don't put off work, but I do put off what should be fun? Why? Why?

I'm a little confused. I thought Kat was going to do the reading for me... Oh well, here goes. I think the Hanged Man represents my, in some respects, difficult childhood. I definitely did form a deep commitment to my own beliefs and I did find peace in that. It seems strange, on one level to say this, because I actually did have many friends growing up, and still do, but I think some of the difficulties I endured while young (such as having to go into the hospital before I even started school) led me to develop a really extreme kind of autonomy that meant not only that I could be happy and contented all by myself, but that that happiness and contentment was actually threatened in a strange way by ordinary social intercourse. I have always enjoyed the company of other people, but I think it is also a bit scary to me because that joy is inherently unstable since I can't control other people, whereas the joy I find in my own company and my work is stable in the sense that I can control myself (at least to a greater extent than I can control other people).
I feel like the Queen of Coins does describe me now in that I am a materialist who enjoys things and "earthly pleasures" such as eating and drinking. People have also remarked that I am generous.
Ah, the King of Wands. I would like to think that that card describes my future and there is some indication that it may.
Well, this was a very helpful exercise, not so much for the present and the future, though it was nice to see such positive cards in those positions, as for the past. I think meditating on the Hanged Man did help me to come to a deeper understanding of myself and that is always good.